Settled down with a coffee and thinking about up-dating my life ... Terry Macnamara says I make the best coffee. I do. Well, the machine does. But I do have expertise in flicking the 'on' switch.
Since YWAM I feel like I have been journeying God on an everyday basis. That, at first, was kind of weird given that I'd arrived back from such a beautiful country where I met God every day in the most bizzare spiritually weird scenarios - and also somehwere that i've potentially left my heart ... but as time went by, I gradually fell back into a routine. If you're thinking good work - then stop. This is bad. Routine is, firstly, not what I want in the slightest, secondly, not helpful in helping me pursue a relationship with God.
Whatever, that time was pretty stagnent - so I was just sitting. Waiting for something to happen. Then I moved into my house with some amazing girls - Mel Cassidy is one of the most beautiful, amazing women I have ever met. Amy Clark is the sweetest, most bubbly girl I have EVER met and Katie B - who I can be genuinely real with, have honest conversation and who consistently surprises me! And I began my journey with God - my journey to climb that mountain, to be more like Jesus :)
I joined the worship team at church where I get to sing alongside amazing people like Ruth Hill (she has a stunning voice and a genuine character. I love her).
More recently I had a dream that I was filled with the spirit, you know, like the people that shout and twitch and fall over in response to the spirit. The people I have always thought 'thank the lord he hasn't asked me to respond like that' towards....well, I had a dream that that happened.
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Little did I know that my time was to come and that God was only flipping preparing me for something I was clearly ready to move on to ... haha. Good times. Anyway, since the Gathering 10 - God has been moving me and I feel the spirit ... sounds weird. Can't express it as well as i'd like to right now.
Listening to a song by Miss Li (Is this the end) on a big speaker in my kitchen, and because there's only one speaker it started in a REALLY attractive quiet way - just her singing ... I'm going to have to re-start it!! Really emotional when the music finally kicks in!
Speaking of music, I am really seeing beauty in music at the moment. I really think that it's such a way to express feelings and emotion. I was listening to classical FM yesterday morning (judge on your own accord, I am happy!) and the way that the music moved flooded my soul - it's the ONLY way to describe how I felt.
Anyway, my point on music was that there is this truely beautiful song - Pledge by Marcus Meier - and the chorus feels like such an anthem:
'This is my prayer, it's my solemn vow,
with all that I am, with all that I have,
I will love you, I will love you.
With all of my heart, my soul and my mind,
I pour out an offereing of worship and cry:
I will love you, I will love you.'
Anyway, this week and next my brother is over from Hull Uni, love having him around, we get on now we're older. After scratching each other eyes out, pushing 'each other' off bunkbeds, drowning and so on ... we really get on. It's nice just to hang out. And worship God together - I am so, so, so proud of the man he is becoming.
Nowadays I feel God fully setting up a future for me ... Jeremiah 29:11 'For I know the plans I have for you' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'
I know it's true and I am ready and raring to go!
Maybe I could say more, but I need to mark some coursework - as that is my job and I do get paid for it.
Good to be back! xxx
